I’ve made up my mind.
I refuse to eat anything until Monday, not even a piece of candy.
Only water, tea with zero calorie sweetener if necessary, and pain killers if I have to take it.
This is my punishment for binging/purging.
I must exercise at least 200 calories off ( have no time for more)
If I do get urges to eat, I’ll think about how fat I already am. I’ll pinch myself to feel it.
I’ll cut myself if I eat. And I don’t want to do that.
So the only choice I have is to not eat.
All that junk food in the cupboards and fridge, I’ll throw out to resist temptation.
Fuck you Mia, you suck. Ana is right. She may be strict but in the end it’s so much more less painful than what you make me go through. I won’t fall for you again. I won’t let you.